Tuesday, April 12, 2011

losing my sanity.

Devyn has been driving me crazy lately. He is on a trial off his thyroid medication right now. Since he has been off his medication I have noticed that he is way more aggressive and violent. Especially towards autumn. He will NOT listen to me at all. All he does is just whine and whine and whine. I feel like I'm having a nervous breakdown. I have a lot of personal stuff going on as well and I have tried everything with him and nothing is working. I find myself yelling at him a lot now. I just cant get through to him. Since he has started preschool I haven't noticed an improvement in anything yet. I'm slowly losing hope. I just need a break. But I know that isn't possible.

He gets his blood drawn this weekend to test his thyroid levels so if they are off then that might contribute to the cause of his behavior. So, we will know in a few weeks.

I just feel like a horrible mom. I always try to be calm and gentle with him. But, now I just get so irritated. I cant have any time to myself. I feel so lost. I just need like 5 minutes to BREATHE.

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